Salam.
4 days after my last post, 19/06/2020-- I got an interview for a substitute teacher (22/06) in a school and a teacher in a tuition center (24/06). I applied the positions via Facebook, my sister sent the link to me. Before that, I didn't know that we could apply job in Facebook hahaha so it was a new thing for me.
SCHOOL:
The school requested to do a video of teaching and send the video before I came to the interview session. I did the video full heartedly using my aunty's old Samsung Tab because that was my only tools for being at Kampung. We went back home on Sunday (21/06) and I finished editing the video Monday, an hour before the interview session pheww. The interview session was on 11am. During the interview, I told them about my situation and I was asked to resign, "Macam mana kalau nak berhenti kat sana? Boleh berhenti?" . I remembered, my father keep saying not to resign on my current job. I just nodded to the interviewer and told him I will discuss with the management. Gosh the interview session was intense as it was my first interview ever after 8 months. They told me the results would be by tomorrow or the day after, because they wanted to have a teacher ASAP. But guess what? I haven't heard from them since then until 28th of June.
TUITION CENTER:
I was late to the interview that day (24/06) because I was lost. It turned out the place was at another side of Kajang hahaha fool me for not reading the WhatsApp messages and opened the given location. It was quite far. I wrote back to the Person-In-Charge (PIC) and informed, "I'm sorry I'm going to be late. I was lost". She was cool enoughand said "It's okay". Luckily when I arrived there, it was not my turned yet. So I waited like 30 minutes. Mind you, I waited like 30 minutes also at the school that day. So it's okay to be early. I kinda have a vibe of 'fun' for the tuition center. So I was like, why not kalau dapat kerja part time sini dulu untuk sebulan kan. The interview session also was fun. Not like the previous interview session, I was told beforehand to prepare for a mock teaching for any topic of mathematics. So I taught the interviewer. It was fun. I taught Logarithm and its law. The response I got from him also great. He told me the interview's result will be out by the weekend. So, likewise I waited patiently. But it has been 9 days since the interview day, I haven't heard anything from them. Tonight, I received a call to offer me the english & mathematics teacher from the tuition center. Sad and frustrated, I had to turned down the offer.
The company I'm working with uplifted the UPL and we were asked to come back to work but only for half month (minimum 13 days). All of these happened right after I went for the interviews. I don't know what else to say. I'm grateful but at the same time it was frustrated. I told my parents so many times that I wanted to quit my current job. But they won't allow me to, they kept saying "tak payah berhenti, biar company yang berhentikan awak. Nanti awak rugi tak dapat pampasan". Is the compensation money THAT important?
Another reason to be frustrated is, I don't have the answer why they called me at the last minute. It makes me think, "am i that bad or am i too good?" 🙁
Kalau tak sebab kena pergi Segamat untuk 2 minggu dan dapat masuk balik kerja, aku dah terima dah tawaran dari pusat tuisyen tu.
To be honest, to be a teacher is one of my ambition since I was a kid. Growing up with aunties and uncle who have been serving their life by teaching had always inspiring me. Berkhidmat untuk negara. Memberi manfaat kepada masyarakat. Kumpul pahala macam tu je. I don't know if you know this. I applied for IPG twice. Passed sampai UKCG for the first and second tu passed sampai group interview. Then that's it. I applied for DPLI UniSZA after I graduated from UMT, but then luck and rezeki is not with me. The application got error and I failed it.
I don't know if I should give up to be a teacher, for now. The path seems to be blurry. Adulthood is blurry. I was once a kid with too many ambitions but now, looking at all the circumstances I became ambitionless.
I learned that we just have to do our work and know our place. May Allah gives what's the best for us and avoid the worst from us. Perhaps things are not going in our way, it is going according to His plans, who know? Only Allah knows.
Aaamiinn.